Can you live in fear of that which you love?

trapped, dark and alone,
no light shelters me.
I can't escape from this trap,
There's no way up that I can see.

I push against the wall,
It's heavy wieght I can barely move.
As I push I begin to fall,
helpless, I brave the ground.

awakened by no sound,
I lay still, while peaceful times recall.
Until that terror moments comes,
I awaken, still against this wall.

I live in fear,
each and every day.
It may happen again,
the floor may give way.

and again I'd awake,
to see the same.
That which I love,
It is my bane.

Can you live in fear of that which you love?
Can you live without a warm embrace?
and most of all can you live without love?